Friday, 26 September 2014

52 Lists: Twenty Seven

52 Lists: List your dreams for the Future (right now)

  1. Move out into a house where I have a big enough kitchen and dining room to cook for my friends and family.
  2. To meet new people and create new connections
  3. To become a member of the MCC so that I too can sit in the amazing pavilion at Lords and feel all of that history. 
  4. To coach to the highest standard I can and make a career out of it.
  5. To meet someone that I will spend the rest of my life with, supporting and caring for each other.
  6. To be happy
What are your dreams for the future?
Kate xx

Tuesday, 23 September 2014

Goodbye Summer

Goodbye summer. No more changing into my whites to take to the field. They have been laundered for the last time. Folded and put back safely for next year. No more long evenings where I stand in the lengthening shadows of the tall, conifer trees waiting for the jubilation. Or the disappointment. Then no matter the result we reconvene on an outside table for a cool, refreshing cider. The warmth of the day fades into camaraderie and chatter. The team will shift their own way through the winter. Coming together infrequently but the bond remains.

My tan still lingers for now. Thank you, summer for that. For the way my skin has gently absorbed the rays and turned a honey colour that no one thought possible. My being so ginger! And then again my hair has new blonde streaks appearing through it. Standing in the sun has changed me. And that not to mention the thousands of freckles that have exploded across my body.

As the warm summer days leave us so our food preferences change. Gone is the BBQ. No-one wants to stand in the rain and eat cremated burgers and sausages. Somehow this is fine when the sun beams down. When my lunch choices lighten and salads become the norm. It's now back to sandwiches and as we progress maybe even soups.

Goodbye days spent spontaneously wandering on the beach. When an ice cream and a hastily prepared picnic is all that is needed. No more standing in the sun rolling up my sleeves whilst I coach smiling happy children. And you don't want to be having water fights when the temperatures fall. I will miss running around playing hide and seek and endless games of musical statues as term starts and the real work!

So as I pack away my shorts and start thinking about finding my cardis, I say thank you summer. Thank you for the beautiful memories. Thank you for the new friends made and the bonds that have grown closer. Thank you for your uncharacterfully summery weather. And until next year goodbye.

Share your memories of this summer. For me it's been great I hope yours has too.
Kate xx

Sunday, 21 September 2014

It's the Little things: Six

I haven't written one of these posts for ages. It's a shame because on a daily basis I do like to to notice all of the Little Things that can make us happy. This week has been just getting back into the swing of school time. It's been a week where it's so noticeable that seasons are changing. I woke up yesterday to a dim room for the first time. We've had the first grey day of the autumn and the leaves are starting to fall. Here goes Autumn:

  • The above photos are from my visit to London back at the end of August. We wandered around Notting Hill and stumbled upon the carnival. The colours were exciting and, despite not getting any good photos, the costumes where amazing. My highlight was a carnival costume that had been fitted around a wheelchair. It felt inclusive, fun and I think the faces of those in the above photos really show this.
  • Having just recovered from a virus, being able to eat and taste has been a bit of a revelation. Therefore I'm enjoying all the yummy combinations I can think of. My breakfast this morning was smooth creamy vanilla yogurt with fresh sliced apples. I can't think of a better way to brisge the change between summer and autumn.
  • All of the wonderful signs that the seasons are changing once more. This week I have really noticed a nip in the air. Especially through the misty mornings when (shock horror) I've had to wear a jumper! All the leaves are starting to turn beautiful browns, red and yellows and tumble to the ground. The mission to crunch through leaves is on!
  • The sweet joy of children's faces when faced with a bouncy castle. Make that adults too! The best thing about the end of the season is lots of fun days to attend and this weeks included and bouncy castle. And yes I did have to have a little go. Although packing it up turned into just as much fun as getting the air out involves lots of jumping and rolling on to it.
  • Parties! I've never been a party animal. However with S Club, Abba and Taylor Swift as a soundtrack we boogied, with pizza and crisps we munched and with tea lights dotting the garden we sat and chatted long into the night. Perfect!
  • Watching the Bake off with a chinese and good friends, snuggled up on the sofa.
I tell you what, this week has been fantastic. A chance to say some goodbyes to those who are toddling of back to Uni, to welcome in a new season and to have plenty of fun. 

What has your week been like? Are you looking forward to autumn?
Kate xx

Wednesday, 17 September 2014

Not good enough

One of the things I would most like to change about myself is something deep down inside me. It rises every now and again at the most inopportune moments. It's the feeling of not being good enough. I put such weighty expectations on my shoulders and a lot of the time I just don't meet them. I'm usually a laid back person that takes everything in my stride however sometimes I can push myself just a little too far.

Take this weekend for example. I played cricket as I usually do for my local team. I'm not sure I have mentioned this, but there is no ladies team in the middle of nowhere where I live so I just play in the men's team instead. Usually this is not a problem. I get on with them really well and can happily bat any banter that is flying around. However there is one downside: my need to constantly push myself and prove that I am up to the standard. I feel, as the only female, this pressure is increased for me. And this weekend it just got to me.

I hadn't played particularly badly, but there was this niggling voice inside my that said I couldn't do it. That my best wasn't good enough. For I always try my absolute best. I felt I was letting the team down.

Then I can on to bowl. I didn't want to. I thought it would be best if I didn't. However I had a go, as my captain was persuading me to. It was awful. I think partly because I was a bit rusty, but also I'd worked myself into such a state over the fact I couldn't do it. I was extremely disappointed in myself.

I walked away from everyone as I could feel tears welling in my eyes. As coincidence would have it I actually had to leave then to catch a train. I walked towards the edge of the field feeling about 2 feet tall. Suddenly I am enveloped in a massive bear hug. One of the guys I've known for years tells me not to worry to enjoy my trip to London.

I run off the pitch and into the changing rooms still crying (because as you know people telling you not to worry doesn't help that much). Just when I wanted to be left alone to snivel quietly, in walks in the mother of one of the other lads. Now I know her name and that's about it. I've never had a conversation with her.

She sits down and tells me how proud she is of me every week. She tells me how her son's girlfriend is over from the US and has been asking all these questions about why I play. She tells me of how surprised and impressed she was to see a girl playing with a men's team. She uses the word "Brave". I don't feel brave, sitting still sniffing with tears rolling down my face.

I sort myself and catch my train. My phone beeps:
"We won. You're wonderful. We all love you. The captain worried about you. See you Monday."

Even when you feel you're not good enough there will be people around you that believe in you. What I'm trying to say in a roundabout way is you can only do your best and although you may think this isn't good enough it really is. Even if you don't believe it, I'm sure there will be someone else out there that will. It's so interesting hearing someone else perception when in your head you feel so disappointed.

Thank you to all those people that have believed in me.
Kate xx

Monday, 1 September 2014

52 Lists: Twenty Six

52 Lists: List the things in your bag right now

Now I don't carry around a handbag because I'm just not that kind of girl. The closest I get is my coaching bag that carries so much in it. Here's a sneak peek...

  1. Purse
  2. Keys
  3. Hairbrush and deodorant - being a sports coach means running from one place to another and sometimes it's necessary to at least look presentable.
  4. Random cricket balls - you must all know I'm a cricket coach by now!
  5. Apparently a torch?! Who knew?
  6. Always some kind of food to keep me going. Currently I have a pack of Maryland cookies
  7. Spare clothes and a towel. We have regular water fights at work so they're in there all the way through the summer.
  8. A first aid kit. Just in case!
  9. Suncream and a cap - because I'm always optimistic of the British summer!

I have to say my list seems a little different to the others I have seen around the internet!
Is there anything random you carry around in your bag?